Alaala ng nakaraan... -20.09.10-

Sadyang Kay bilis ng panahon...
Isang taon na ang nakalipas...
Ang araw na Hindi ko inakalang darating sa buhay natin...
Ang araw na ni sa hinagap Hindi ko naisip na mangyayare sa'tin...

Subalit, dumating...
Oras ng pamamaalam na Hindi ko man Lang inasahan...
Buong pangarap ko'y naglaho...
Mundo'y parang gumuho... Hangi'y parang naubos...
Oras biglang huminto...

Sakit na nadamay ikinubli sa puso...
Pilit pinagtakpan katotohanan sa harapan...
Kahit anong gawin pilit na di paniwalaan at
Mas sinubukang mabuhay sa nakaraan...

Subalit ano mang kubli... Katotohana'y di maitatanggi...
Ikaw ay wala na... Tayo ay tapos na...
Pait na nadarama'y binaon at pilit kinalimutan
Salamat sa mga kaibigan na Hindi ako iniwan...

Isang taon ang nakalipas ngunit nadarama'y di maipagkakaila...
Iba ng ikaw ang nawala... Mundo ko'y sobrang nangulila...
Hindi ko maitatanngi, pagsisisi'y nasa huli...
Kung nagawa ko Lang ipaglaban
Siguro'y iba ang naging kapalaran...

Ngunit sadyang may mga bagay,
Kung di laa'y di rin ibibigay...
Baka sadyang di ikaw ang bigay sa'kin ng Maykapal...

Sa pag lipas ng panahon, natutong tanggapin ang katotohanan...
Na ikaw ay wala na... At Hindi na babalik pa...

Hangad ko ang kaligayahan
At tagumpay na para sa'yo...
Nawa'y patuloy kang subaybayan at pagpalain ng Maykapal...

Maraming salamat sa mga itinuro mo, aral ng buhay sayo'y madaming natutunan...
Maraming salamat sa pagmamahal na walang katulad...
Nawa ako'y mapatawad sa sakit na nadulot ko sa nakaraan...

Salamat sa lahat...
Ang maging bahagi ka ng buhay ko,
Kailan ma'y hinding-Hindi ko pagsisisihan...

August 11, 2011
00:38 AM

there is YOU, there is ME... but there is really no "US"

It's been awhile and been thinking about it for quite sometime,

I don't know if it's really the right time rather if it is really the right thing to do...

but I guess I've to make up my mind...

It's been 3 months... of waiting, heartache, chasing, sadness, crying and a never ending story... 

Every time I choose to step forward you're doing something to pull me back...

But you don't have the courage to speak out, to tell me the truth or whatever is in your heart...

I don't know for what you are afraid of and can't understand how you want it to be... 

I don't even know what to think and what to believe...

You make me feel missed and loved but you can't utter the words and let it out...

Enough with this childish thing, we are not young to play this game...

I will let the fate work for us coz it will never be if it is not willed by God...

Maybe it's just really not for us or maybe "still" not the right time...

But whatever it is, it changed nothing,

there is YOU, there is ME... but there is really no "US"...

16.08.11

01:05 am

YOU are now free to fly...

-ay bigla kang naalala... Kung nasan ka man, sana ok ka na ;) hangad ko ang iyong kaligayahan... ♥
August 16, 2010 at 11:59pm via Facebook Mobile

exactly a YEAR AGO... at different situation but STILL, i wish YOU d same thing... SANA OK KA NA... SANA MASAYA KA NA... SANA YAN TALAGA ANG GUSTO MO... whatever happened... "Hangad ko ang iyong kaligayahan... ♥" as always... u'll be forever in my heart & will always be n my prayers... Thank You!

YOU are now free to fly...
I'm now letting YOU go! ;-)

Life is not like Fairytales....

It's funny how we set qualifications for the right person to love while at the back of our minds we know that the person we truly love will always be an exception.

-Bakit nga ba, para saan pa ang "ideal man" Kung si Mr. Opposite din naman ang mamahalin... What is the sense of "prince charming" sa fairytales naililigtas ang dumpsel in distress Kung isang stranger na magpapaiyak Lang ang makikilala? how about the knight in shining armor Kung isang taong sasaktan at iiwan ka lang ang iyong makakasama...

haaiizz... kasi STOP dreaming... STOP pretending that life is like fairytales... Hindi tayo si Cinderella na nag aantay ng prinsipe, nkasakay sa kabayong puti... at ng dahil sa sapatos ay mamahalin ka at ilalayo sa mapang aping madrasta...

WAKE UP!! Life is not as simple as fairtytales... Life don't usually have "happy endings!" LIVE in REALITY and time will tell the tale! ;)

quick update ;)

Hello People!

I know it’s been awhile, I’ve been busy at work and with some personal thingy.

Oh well, I had wonderful “JULY 2011”... a roller-coaster ride “Ups and Downs, literally!” I pampered myself “SUPER!”... shopping galore! My dream Sony Vaio and iPhone 4! –aayyiiee!!!- I’m so in love with myself nowadays... heheheh...

I remembered my “psychologist” friend, “Is it a compensation for you? For being broken so many times? LOL!” it was kinda “MEAN” but somehow it made sense and honestly, -napaisip ako dun!!- hahahaha....

Anyway, whatever it is, doesn’t matter... as long as im happy “GORA lang!!”

I hate this, I know didn’t make any sense with this blog... but i just wanna update my page... ^_^ hehehe... I have lot of ideas but can’t organize my thoughts yet.

Gimme lil more time... i’ll be on track soon... ^_^ ay_miss_yuh!

xoxo_sziimpleng.maldiitah

Flight after almost 7 years...

After four or five times attempt of going back home which always got postponed due to some unwanted and unexpected circumstances.... finally I DID IT!!! :)

I had chance to go back to my country, Philippines, for vacation and stayed there for 35 days... wooohhhooo!!!

It was Friday, 04th of February 2011 at 10:10 through Etihad Airways, flight EY428, Abu Dhabi to Manila direct flight.

Night before our flight we checked in our luggages through City Terminal, Abu Dhabi, to avoid hassle in taking our things to airport and staying in queue for baggages. We just need to go straight to immigration after weighing of our hand carries.

I was awake until about 02:00 as I was so excited and can't sleep because finally, after soooo long years I can see my friends... yeah, I just went home for my friends... and of course my Lolo and my nephew.

Then the day has come, it's our flight and we woke up at 07:00... ow-mayy!!! We are late!! We should be at the airport at least by 08:00 and our home is like 45 minutes drive to Abu Dhabi International Airport! Ohh-Mayy!!

We left the house around 08:10, passed by at McDo for McDo Breakfast and reached the airport at exactly 09:00... yeah, my sister was driving so fast which took only 25-30 minutes to destination :)

Thank God we did early check in for our luggages and it took only 20 minutes and done... BOARDING!!! :-)

I can't explain the feelings when I was there, waiting for few more minutes... I will be home in few more hours... My only wish because that time, I know my life will change... -literally-

10 minutes before my flight, I called someone... I called him... to said goodbye though I still uttered the words "I Love You!" that time I mean it... A LOT!! but I knew and I promised to myself... that would be the LAST...

I wanted so much to go back to Philippines for vacation because I know that is the only way that will help me to finally move on.

Time has come... passengers of flight EY428, Abu Dhabi to Manila, please fall in line...

The last words he said... "always take care of yourself!"

The moment I hung up on the phone, I know from my self that -THIS IS IT- the time I have been waiting... the urge... It was real, no any single bit of pretension and even myself, I can't believe that finally I had the courage to face the reality... He left and will never come back... He is gone!

I was happy and excited, didn't even feel scared nor worried on how will I go on... I was so sure that I am strong enough to finally put an end and period in that chapter of my life.

10:10 - Taking Off...

It was almost 9 hours flight, I didn't sleep even a nap! I was so excited and I watched 4 disney movies. Food was great and crews were very accommodating.

The weather was fine though it was cloudy that made the plane rock a bit thrice. Below is a view from the window, it was so fine and bright.

15:25 - They served the dinner, chicken adobo and fruits for dessert. After I ate, I played the last movie on the cartoons list, Tangled.

17:45 - 15 minutes after I finished watching the last movie, the crew announced that in 30 minutes we will be landing on Manila International Airport. wooohhhooo....

A glimpse of Manila at night...

Then finally, arrived in Ninoy Aquino International Airport at 22:25, Philippines' time. It is TRUE that once the plane landed safely at NAIA, all filipinos are clapping their hands and screaming... you can really feel their happiness and emotions are priceless.

and finally... after 2,450 days or 6 years, 8 months and 14 days... Hello Philippines!!! I'm home... I am finally home!!! :)

haaiizzsstt...

Its been a week im trying to compose a blog but I cant find any word to start my piece… L

10 COMMANDMENTS OF LOVE...

1 - Don’t ask me to accept your past, What’s essential is who you are today
2 - Don’t expect this love to last, It will endure time if we may
3 - Never send me flowers, I give you my very heart
4 - Never listen to others, They’re not the one in love
5 - Don’t cry for our disputes, Tears do not heal the wounds
6 - Don’t tell me to conform to you, I’d change for you if I choose
7 - Never confine me to be loyal, Just trust that I won’t leave
8 - Never find me your defender, I’m ethereal, you just believe
9 - Don’t expect me to love you, I won’t oppose your feelings
10 - Don’t tell me not to love you either, Let me have my part of loving

For in this game of love, You try not to follow rules
But abide by the conditions, Of what the heart has understood

Newsline Dec. 2004 issue

REPOST:  http://rlaylo.tumblr.com/post/6588838444/10-commandments-of-love

This Is It!!

15 June 2011

17:27 - AD, UAE

Hello people of the world!! 

Here I am again, trying to start a blog site which I have been trying to keep for quite long time already. I just hope this time it will be successful J

Exactly one more month from now, I will be completing my 25 years of existence. Will be facing another stage of my life, a grown up woman and will be done with the teeny-thingy type.

Honestly speaking, thinking about it makes me feel sick and really stressed knowing that “THIS IS IT!”, I am no more a kid, teen, lady… but a woman! More responsibilities and should be independent enough (includes house chores, aaww… yeah, you read it right! ;), should be more stronger and braver to face the reality of life and accept that life is not a fairytale fluff, should decide on my own and should have a firm one for my future coz this time, no one to blame but myself.

I can still remember when I was a kid, I always wanted to fast forward the time so that I will grow up fast. I always dreamed that I am already 18, college life, lots of friend, enjoying life, partying and so on. When I was 18, I didn’t stop to dream and wish that I will turn 25 so that I can get married to the man I love, have kids and be a happy and contented married woman.

And now, time has come, I will be 25 in few more sleeps, and now, wishing… hoping… and dreaming… that I can still turn the hand of time back when I was a kid. I can’t recall how my life was when I turned 18. It was so quick and already late when I realized that time really fly so fast.

I was one of those who were unlucky, who did not experience the “normal” college life. The happiness they feel when the professor’s not in or during irregular class because of foundation week, sleepover to your friend’s house for projects or reviews, thesis, on job training, outing and of course college graduation day.

However, I am fortunate enough thinking that I had time to spend with my Papsy, at least a year before he was gone. I faced the real life when I was 19, working in a reputable international company and since then, I did not notice how was the progress of my life until one day I woke up and realized that “ooppss, I will be 25 and until now I don’t know what I want and what I have!”

It is so odd thinking that we always want what we don’t have at the moment and it is too late to realize that our time has passed and we cannot bring back the time that lapsed.

Now, I wish that I can still go back to the time when I have nothing to worry other than to memorize the ABC or at least during high school life where you really meet the REAL and TRUE friends but sadly, no matter how I hope to turn the hand of time, it will never be. REALITY is now facing me, that in few more years I will be in my 30s, I know it is still a long journey ahead of me but I have only few years to fulfill my dreams.

At this point of time, my dream is my only priority. I have set my goals and set a deadline to achieve it. Travelling is also my obsession and really I want to pamper and treat myself for doing such a great job, for being what I am now. I may not be as successful as anyone else but I am, on my own.