This Is It!!

15 June 2011

17:27 - AD, UAE

Hello people of the world!! 

Here I am again, trying to start a blog site which I have been trying to keep for quite long time already. I just hope this time it will be successful J

Exactly one more month from now, I will be completing my 25 years of existence. Will be facing another stage of my life, a grown up woman and will be done with the teeny-thingy type.

Honestly speaking, thinking about it makes me feel sick and really stressed knowing that “THIS IS IT!”, I am no more a kid, teen, lady… but a woman! More responsibilities and should be independent enough (includes house chores, aaww… yeah, you read it right! ;), should be more stronger and braver to face the reality of life and accept that life is not a fairytale fluff, should decide on my own and should have a firm one for my future coz this time, no one to blame but myself.

I can still remember when I was a kid, I always wanted to fast forward the time so that I will grow up fast. I always dreamed that I am already 18, college life, lots of friend, enjoying life, partying and so on. When I was 18, I didn’t stop to dream and wish that I will turn 25 so that I can get married to the man I love, have kids and be a happy and contented married woman.

And now, time has come, I will be 25 in few more sleeps, and now, wishing… hoping… and dreaming… that I can still turn the hand of time back when I was a kid. I can’t recall how my life was when I turned 18. It was so quick and already late when I realized that time really fly so fast.

I was one of those who were unlucky, who did not experience the “normal” college life. The happiness they feel when the professor’s not in or during irregular class because of foundation week, sleepover to your friend’s house for projects or reviews, thesis, on job training, outing and of course college graduation day.

However, I am fortunate enough thinking that I had time to spend with my Papsy, at least a year before he was gone. I faced the real life when I was 19, working in a reputable international company and since then, I did not notice how was the progress of my life until one day I woke up and realized that “ooppss, I will be 25 and until now I don’t know what I want and what I have!”

It is so odd thinking that we always want what we don’t have at the moment and it is too late to realize that our time has passed and we cannot bring back the time that lapsed.

Now, I wish that I can still go back to the time when I have nothing to worry other than to memorize the ABC or at least during high school life where you really meet the REAL and TRUE friends but sadly, no matter how I hope to turn the hand of time, it will never be. REALITY is now facing me, that in few more years I will be in my 30s, I know it is still a long journey ahead of me but I have only few years to fulfill my dreams.

At this point of time, my dream is my only priority. I have set my goals and set a deadline to achieve it. Travelling is also my obsession and really I want to pamper and treat myself for doing such a great job, for being what I am now. I may not be as successful as anyone else but I am, on my own.